musicalsilent

I remember you, Arthur. I remember but pieces of me, But I remember you well. Feel the hands on my face, The lips pressed lightly against The heavy crown, which never belonged To the head which it adorned. I remember you. You loved me. The strength you told me about, It's all but abandoned me now. You were so sure you'd make it. And now I wish I hadn't promised. These emotions and these lights God I don't think my head has Completely come to terms with The fact that we're all alone Alone in the universe where I I believed in a happier place. Now I know I take solace in compassion, And mediocrity will suffice for me. 9/22/17

If everything else goes away, we have to focus on one thing. When they fall out yet again, our scars will fade again The pain they feel is as real as our happiness. We have to remember in the end their happiness is just as well as our pain. I know there is something real out there, but.. I can't remember all those words I have learned. I never meant to disappoint you, I longed for you. I longed to make you happy and tore a hole in you. I thought your itch was a poison but it was just a scratch. I made everything so much worse and I never meant to hurt you. I never meant to make everything so much worse and break it. You heart is so stro

Can I just take a second before you speak, to remind you of every single motoric leak Those puncture wounds from when you went AWOL? Or is that not important because you ignored it all? Am I supposed to simply thank you for existing? I am never going back down that deep dark hole Back to when you and I were Diamond and Coal. Oh I wish I'd known how you hurt yourself for me When I still had thicker skin to protect an enemy And a death wish in my heart fueled by compassion. You will never bring me down again so don't try And you will hit the ground so hard you'll cry Good bye honey, you're the only one who's alone The sweet revenge of revenge

Remember, remember The promise we made That come the September We'd not be afraid Of the future as we two Did walk off the edge And for all we've been through I still wait on the ledge. I am afraid, and you are gone But all the time my fear... Well, it still lingers on. I just wish you were still here.

Here we go, a bright new day full of color and new opportunity. And at last, new opportunities that should never have been new in the first place. Somehow love went unrecognized For far too long. So raise your head, dear. Tomorrow is here, at least for now. And under the law too, you may love whom you choose, Or whom you love may choose you.

I've been wishing and waiting For something to change. Maybe it's not there, Maybe I'm not in range? But there is something. Something far out to sea, Just waiting for me. What could it possibly be?

I never gave you what you wanted Because I was busy giving you What it was I thought you needed. It seems we were both wrong.

I have found, I am found I can breathe, I can see. For the first time I'm not afraid, Just comfortable, comfortable. Dear Admonisher, don't bury Face this enemy in front of you, do you see? I am your new agony For you,          I feel everything, but             I feel nothing anymore.. I am so sorry 'Cause these eyes don't shine Half as bright As they used to do But I wish they could for you I'm a mess of fading lines, With nothing in my hands. Let me hold on  to you Because you're the only one I'll hold.

Remember today. November 20th. Today was an important day. Yes, for you too. Remember. Every little thing they said to you today. Breathe in the words, Exhale the meanings. Surround yourself in their scent. Breathe in, breathe out. Can you still hear their voice? Like home. Like everything you were afraid of. You don't have to be afraid anymore. Breathe in, breathe out. Tomorrow doesn't matter. it didn't yesterday. Just breathe for today, And don't hold your breath; There's no need to worry anymore.

Just another hour, then I'm done. Breathe in, shudders out. Breathe out, scream within. Can you see my shaking hands? I'm trembling; I can't breathe. Pushing these things down my throat Trying to swallow my incapability I am drowning and you are in front of me. You think I'm fine, you think I'm grand. You don't see me when things are out of hand. I am a human being but I am regarded as nothing. My ideas don't matter, my heart should be stone. I AM SO TIRED OF BEING LESS THAN YOU. I AM SO HOPELESS BECAUSE YOU TELL ME SO. YOU ARE THE REASON I CAN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT! YOU ARE THE REASON I WILL NEVER BE MORE THAN A STUDENT. But keep on doing wha